Break Me.

Friends. A universal thing. Everyone has it. Whether you like it or not, someway or somehow, you're bound to have one. Even the Christmas Grinch has one. I suppose there are many types of friends. You have your hi-bye friends, close buddies, best friends, friends-for-life slumber mates, etc.. Not forgetting you may have one or two complicated ones as well. Usually, the complicated friends are the ones who display the most irony. These are the friends that are hazardous to your health (mentally), yet you know that somehow, they are a part of you. No matter how ridiculous they get, you know that you'd somehow take their crap. But...when your head starts to clear out...and suddenly you find..there's a limit to everything. No matter how dear anyone is to you, say your parents, sisters, friends...there is always a limit.

And then comes the million dollar question. Should you suck it all in, or...should you just let go? Then you realize...both ways, you lose. In this cruel game, you never win. But..you suddenly see a loophole. That loophole has its thorns as well. Hmm...you would have to know, to measure, how important that friend to you is. If the importance is insignificant to you, all you have to do is just let go. But..what if, that friend means a lot to you? You don't know why she/he is important, you just know that a part of you will change without that person even though it may only be a small change. Letting go...would hurt. So much that even you're not sure of. If you choose to hold on, it may destroy you and probably the both of you.

I know what you're thinking, just let go. Why the trouble? You're going to lose anyway. Both ways would still hurt. And at this point, my mind drifts back to the start. What have I done wrong from the beginning? The answer hits me like a lightning bolt.

EVERYTHING.