HELP Institute..

*Gasp!* "A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.!"

Talking about not worrying about my future...

Anyhow...HELP Institute's building already took my breath away...the building is like..so COOL! Yupz..When we (Cik Sri Devi, Christina, Devis, K.Pui Mun, Me and Swan Boon) were..kinda ''lost'' in the building, trying to find our way out to the shops so that we could EAT..(we were dead hungry!)..the ''classes'' inside were so kewl! The lockers..the labs...the computers! Gosh...but...nah..don't wanna think about my future..too far ahead! Lol..

By the way, the workshop is good lar. Not bad...though I know some people thinks it's boring. But..there are a few pointers here and there. Kristin and Ai Lynn should come. Hehe...then they'll probably make drastic changes in our school magazine this year.

Gosh...tuition is totally making me SICK! I've only got tuitions for only 3 subjects. And I'm vomitting blood already. Imagine what will happen if I take more tuitions. Sighz...I really got a headache the last half hour of the class discussing bout the time we had to replace and stuff.. it seems that for the whole month of April..so..my point is...: Why don't we do everyone a favour and JUST cancel the classes for that month??? Why are we making such a fuss of replacing 10 HOURS of classes?? HEll..we've already covered 7 topics...7!!! But no..we don't wanna cancel classes becuz of GOD knows WHAT. Dunno oso. Whatever.

Okok...please..please..whoever reads this...let it not be ANY of my tuition gang. Especially my tuition teacher...he won't kill me...but...u know...Oh..well..I've got choir at 4 pm later. Malasnya...nevermind...go there have fun..i hope. Lol...Then go swimming!! Yay! MOre laterz. C ya!

Tired

I'm so tired. Finally, school week's over! It's a Friday. I managed to complete my BM project last night and fully binded it this morning. Took me an hour half though. Oh, and I completed my choral speaking script in a night...then I combined mine with U Shen's the next morning and with a lil' changes here and there, TADA! You're now looking at a completed choral speaking script! Lol...hey..but it's true. And photo session was tiring! I don't think my pic this year is nice. I still prefer my Form 3 Picx. What am I saying? I haven't even see the pics yet and already "complaining". Nevermind. I've haven't been my old self today either. No wait. Scratch that! THe WHOLE WEEK!! Guess you guys know the reason. Hmm..I take that back again. Not many know. Or rather...not many remember. Sighz...today I feel so tired and down. I dunno why! Plus I'm also bored! Tomorrow have to go to HELP Institute for some workshop for Edboard. So lazy to go laa..but it's supposed to be a good workshop. Hm...better be..or else...Everyone thought I'm sad or something today. Well...partly I am. I dunno why...maybe not enough sleep kut...because of my tiredness, I kinda ignored everyone. Sorry guys. Didn't mean it. Just not my day to talk today. Really tired. Everyone was like asking..."Why so sad?" I'm not THAT sad actually. Hehe...Don't worry people...(to people who are worried about me)...I'm fine...just...you know lah. Oh...exams results are terrible. Ok. Stop! Won't talk about it. You don't wanna know what will happen. Nothing bad will happen. Just that tears will start stinging my eyes or something similar to that. Izzati Lembu's last day in school is today. Gonna miss her like hell...she's supposed to give me her address so I can mail her. Hehe..Wish I could. Good luck to you my friend. God bless always. With all the spare time today, my brain started stringing word by word and from a rhyming line. Then, I came up with the idea of writing another poem. Sorry guys, won't post that in public. Love that poem. You wanna read...? Let's see if you guys are in my 'specialized list'. Oh, great. My newly created word. Lol. Oh well..better chow now. Exact time? 11.49pm. uh huh...Tomorrow need to go school. And Edboard. hehe..very well..c all of ya soon. Byez! Cheerio selalu!!

Skool! Results! Argh!

"Ring! Ring!"...Apart from that sound..."My beautiful melody from my handphone..."..."Oh no! *Groans*..Please don't tell me it's time for school..."

School holidays are over...*cries*...Missing them already. Woke up feeling really sleepy this morning. Haihz...shouldn't have slept so late last night. Nevermind. Went to school with my tie half-done. "Great. I should have done this last night." The routine is just the same. Same old place..same old teachers..same old..PREFECTS! Argh...people in blue clothings are everywhere. Forget them. Anyway, right into class and memories of exams results came flooding into my brain! Oh, crap! Well...my results were crap as well...I'm not telling you my results. You wanna know..ask me! I just don't wanna ''spread'' this to the whole wide world...Lol! Then...spend the rest of the day..anxious for my next paper to come. Then, library meeting. Usuals...usuals..usuals...have to skip UBS tomorrow for the rehearsal! Huhuhu..I wanna go for UBS! Sighz...lazy to blog now...Till then! Byez

worry sick!

I'm worried. Dead worried. Of someone. My fren. Though I don't really know him. He's worrying me like hell! Okay. I won't say anything more. Btw, I'm also worried for my another fren who did something wrong. I wish I can correct him before something - ok..not really bad..but..trouble for him laa - happens. I jz feel like blogging today. THough everything doesn't seem right today. Haihz...looks like I'll blog till here. Dun feel like it already. Anyway, thx Lien Yiny..for that encouraging comment. =) Byez ppl...

I wanna cry. . .

WHy?? Can someone tell me why I have to be the weak one even though I'm the eldest in the family? Why do I always have to back down in every single fight? It hurts . . . from the very bottom of my heart...it spreads all around. It's really unfair for me!!! Bcuz of 'someone'. . . I lost my courage to scold anyone..even those who you can label...:stranger. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what I'm going to turn to when I grow up later in life. Will I stay forever timid and ''lost''? Forever scared and unable to fight for my own rights? Tell me! I don't want to be a fool in my parents' hearts...a slave to my sister...I...I can't take this! It's just too much...why....I felt..like . . . a soul...trapped in a box...a black box...no sun..no light...no life! I don't want to be a slave to anyone. I just...want to be...me. I want to cry...sometimes..I cry myself to sleep..but there's one thing I'm sure of : everytime someone brings my sister into the conversation...i know..tears will silently roll down my cheeks...I've tried to stop..to bring myself together...to be strong..but I can't...maybe it's becuz the pain I've kept in me for so long . . . but all I know...I'll never stop until the pain in me is gone. . .until I know. . . when I can stand back on my feet. . . and when I can return to my world...i gtg now...*sweet dreams...*

Nice Outing...

Today's outing is N.I.C.E. Well..we didn't get to see a movie.. but..we went bowling. Twice. Together with lotz of walking! Gosh..my leg sakit adi. It turns out that...having my sister around is..fun! Not a disaster after all! Haha! Anyway, already planning to take her out for the next outing. Wakakakaka...Bought lovely prezzie for..ok..won't say..in case the person read this!...I will give full details "soon"! Hehehe...So. I think I spend half of what I was given this morning in Sg. Wang n Lot 10. (money i mean...) Wakakakkaa....nvm..once in a blue moon. :-D! I got new handphone thingy. If you get what I mean...those hanging stuff...hehe..mine is blue! My sis one is pink! ISh...gtg now! Byez!

Sunday morning rain is falling...

" Step by step, heart to heart, left right left, We all fall down..."
"Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win but the battle wages on...for toy soldiers"

I love this song man!!! SO chun-ted...hehe...It's HOLIDAYS!! Yay! Finally a chance for me to go out tomoro! But...wait..there's a catch...yupz...hang on! It's no ordinary catch! It's just a TINY nightmare: My SISTER is TAGGING along! But..nevermind...since she's my only hope of going now....hehe...once in a while wouldn't hurt..will it? *Praying to God* "Please..don't let tomorrow be a disaster.." But I don't think it will...hehe... Anyway..tuition was a bit..'fast' today. N I got really really sleepy in the car...I slept for a couple of hours I guess..then I went for choir...met all my fwens...miss them so much. That Jeff (Chee Kan) mengada...he ah.."miss" my sis soooo much..hehe....aiya...gtg now...byez...

The Sea of Emotions...Pt.1

Here's my second poem of the week...hope you enjoy it!

My Sea Of Emotions (Part 1)

At last, a blast of freedom
Filled with happiness and fun
Running wild in my fairytale kingdom
Kissing the air, thanking the sun.

*

Looking down the road so empty

Quiet, silent and cold

Wondering why I couldn't see

Wonderful things that I've been told.

*

Silent tears rolled down my cheeks

Disappointment filled inside

All my mistakes made me weak

Wishing I could just hide.

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Rushing of the air

Screams here and there

Laughter everywhere

Excitement? You bet!

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Poem's Day...

Ppl! I've written a poem today. When I came back from skool. Something happened in skool that 'inspired' me to write this not-so-good poem. Anyway. Just wanna share it. Nolar actually. I jz feel like posting it up. That's all...there will be another one tomoro. Lol...


I'm weak
I know
I'm soft
It's true.

This is unfair
But what can I do???

I can't scream
I can't shout
I felt useless
I felt like being used.

Can someone tell me why?
I had to go through this
I fear I might no longer keep
The pain I've endured so long.

All these questions in my head
Screaming to get out:
Should I be who I've always been or
Should I scream and shout?

As I sit and close my eyes
My thoughts went running wild
I felt the changes in my mind
And hope to see the light.

Looking throuhg the window pane
Admiring the glowing sun
Wishing I could forget this pain
And remember all the fun.

Exams are killing me. . .

"Two more paper...just two more paper, Zunny. Then you're FREE!" Finding myself repeating that sentence after my EST paper today over and over again. I really can't wait till Friday after Accounts paper, then...I'm so totally be jumping for joy! Well, I hope I would. Now that I found out I'm so moody these a days. No idea why. Nope...not exams. Not overwork or something. Nada. Oh well. Forget it. Hope it'll goes off ryte after exams...then..I can cheer with my fwens or something. Knowing me, something weird. Okayz. AddMaths after this. I mean, on Friday. Wishing that I would scrape by at least with an A. Jz the borderline can make me jump with joy. Or if worse comes to worse...at least (i'm hoping!) a B. Or a C. It's the first test rytez? What am I thinking??? How can I think of my results when I'm not even sure I can complete the paper in an hour's time??? ARGH! THIS is scary. "God bless me...and my fwens..." Gosh, I can't think straight. And I can't wait to online. (BTW, I'm onlining secara 'haram'.) "Be patience, Zunny...Friday's coming...it'll be quick...and you can be free..." Psychonyer saya..talking to myself in my blog. Anyway, I dunno what else to write. So I might as well say goodbye. Wait for my next entrie on FRiday! Byez!

Exams!

Okay gotta be quick b4 my sis returns. Rytez...jz drop by to see how's my blog doing. Ah...still the same. Lovely! Hehe...Exams on Monday...crap...haven't study...Hey...will blog more after exams...ryte now...have to chiaoz! Byez!