Terminated.

Hey ppl! I've changed my layout. "The Lost Memories Version 6.0". Is it kewl or what? Anyway, I only took about 5 hours to get this complete. Really fast...compared to my 2nd layout ages ago...it took me more than 10 hrs...imagine! Really glad...though there were many crap trouble that got into the way...patience guided me and brought me to where I stand today. Oh great, I ter-cipta another rhyming phrase. What's with me anyway? I finally found out how to change the thingy on the Tag Board. Kewl...=D I luv my blog...sighz..I'm crapping at this hour now...gosh..it's midnight N i'm still awake N I haven't pack for skool tomoro! :s I'm so naughty...BTw, blog will be terminated for about...a week..till next Friday. Cuz of exams. Gonna miss being online...Nvm...I'll talk about the Sports Day when I get the chance. Chiaoz ppl...gtg! C ya!

P.S. : Thx 4 all of your support during the "hard" times for this blog. LOL!

~Sports Day~

Gee, tomoro is Sports Day already...I'm not going to wakil Shirtliff for anything again this year..so..I'll just be there and give my support. As usual. Shirtliff spirit is running low..i don't know why...I just got this feeling...no offence to all Shirtliff members. Okay. Enough about that. I don't think I can online tomoro...maybe can replace on Sunday..wakakakkaakakaka..=D. Oopsie..gtg now..gtg sleep so can wake up tomoro and then...water game!!! *splash*! Haha..c ya!

SHIRTLIFF ROCKS!!!

Happie Valentine's Day!

*Happie Valentine's Day!*

God Bless You.

May your day is filled with chocolates, flowers and everything nice!

C ya!

Flu..

Woke up feeling...a bit strange. Wondering what it was..suddenly..i was overcome by a feeling...then...AH-CHOO! Oopsie...excuse me! Hehe...looks like I'm getting flu. The first half of my day was spent doing homework. The other half was spent in Times Square. Unfortunately, I didn't go there to have fun in the Theme Park...I spent it walking around and around and choosing watches which were selling at RM10 each!! So cheap! N they're all so pwetty! Hehe..I got 2!!! =P. Ah...today's the last day of the week for me to online. So sad...all bcuz of my dominating sister. If it wasn't becuz of her, I would've enjoy myself onlining tomoro! Oh well...um..rytez..today's my mum's birthday! Hehe...nice...I wanted to make her something but she never lets me! So evil...N I owe her a dinner + RM10. Hmm...okayz...sure..one day..hehe...Ryteza...oopsie...guess I gotta go now. Byez!

"Like a blade of a knife, so sharp, so sweet..." - Princess Mononoke

Dead tired...

Ah...the comfort of my home sweet home. I'm finally back from my "balik kampung" journey. Feeling so tired...but still hyper. Dunno why. I'm expecting my mum OR dad to come yelling at me any minute by now to ask me to go sleep. *I hope not* I really want to stay online a little longer. As I'm behind my schedule and I really don't like my memory that fades as quickly as it comes. I have probably like...10 things I'm supposed to do once I go online but every single time I go online...*blank*..."What am I supposed to do again?" It's really annoying, come to think of it. As soon as I go offline...everything rushes back into my head and you'll find me whacking myself with a book. *just joking* I don't whack myself, but I do scold myself. I'll fell so geram with myself that I keep on scolding myself "stupid" till my mum thinks that I'm nuts or something. ARGH! I'm so bored...I miss someone...in fact...come to think of it...I don't only miss someone...I've been missing everyone!!! Yeah...KIM!!! TEDDY BEAR!!! EVA!!!! Y SO LONG NEVER CALL ME??? like they're gonna read this anyway. Hehe...psycho me. As usual. Ah...tomorrow's my last day online for the week. The next time I'm allowed to online is like...next Friday. Sad. Yes, my sister is still dominating my life. And it's probably a tradition to her to report every single thing that happened to me...such as...from whom I received my sms..(like I tell her that)...who called...and stuff..kinda annoying. Thank god she doesn't go online these days..if she ever read this stuff..my life is over. Oh well..malasnye I want to blog..guess I'll end it here. Byez ppl...

"Like a blade of a knife, so sharp, so sweet..." - Princess Mononoke

Hurts

Tear drops. Swish. A cut in my heart, bleeding and hurting as I struggle to go on through the day. Smile. To hide my sorrow. WHY??? Why is he treating me this way? What have I done??? Why is he paying more attention to others and not to me? Does he not realize that I exist??? I've tried so many things to make him notice me, to make him realize that I'm always there for him, to make him realize that I really care about him. Didn't he realized that I'm always the last one, waiting for him? Then, he'll go chasing the others when they left him. I'm always the one following his trail behind. Hurts. I totally meant NOTHING to him. I know that. I can feel it. IF he dislike me 'cause of the incident at the hotel...please forgive me. I'm trying to protect you! If not...I don't know what would happen. But of cuz he will NEVER EVER read this entrie. Gosh...I really love him! More than anything else in the world. (except for my family, friends..bla bla bla...) Everytime I'm left out, I tried to communicate with him. Then, I know. Even if I'm pushed into his existance, even if we both are the only people in a room or even the world...I am...n-o-t-h-i-n-g. Looks like I can do nothing ryte now. I can't change the fact. I can only accept it and move on. Knowing that he is always thrust into my presence. And that he will never disappear from my life. Till the day I die. Serious. I believe that one day, his perspective towards me will change. As he grows mature each day. I know...someday...it'll happen.











What? Do u guys know who m I talking about? Tee hee...I know whoever's reading this might think that I'm talking bout my crush or something...wakakakak..like I'm ever stupid enough to write it online! Gosh...anyway...I'm talking bout my 2-year-old nephew that I love sooooooooo much!!! Yes, it's true. He's ignoring me. Total obvious ignoring me. He only 'have eyes' for my sister. Yeap. It does hurt. When you keep trying to talk to him but him ignoring you. It really hurts. Especially when he throws away your hand when he realizes it's not my sis. Especially when he runs not at me but at my sister. Especially when I'm sitting ryte in front of him and he RUNS looking for my sister n niece n nephew just to tell them that he like one car. And he never tell me a single thing. Or rather, he never utters a single word to me. It sucks. But, I'm wishing...and still wishing..that he'll change as he grows up. I really want him to know that I really care for him! That's how much I love him.

"Like a blade of a knife, so sharp, so sweet..." - Princess Mononoke.
(She didn't say it. It's from the movie theme song.)

Haihz

Looks like I'm not that strong after all. Hehe...I'm not wakil for rejam lembing..I finally found out. Nevermind...I'm giving better people more energy! Hehe..I can't throw far. So..I think you get the drift. Not very disappointed. Weird me. Anyway, Kristin asked me and Kim to do high jump. I STILL CAN'T DO IT!!! Darn...I so really want to go OVER the yellow pole. The thing is...everytime the pole gets nearer...I just freak out! Gosh..I don't know why's that..but yeah..that's what happened. According to Jeff, my way of jumping can bring me serious injuries. Anyway, I'm addicted to high jump ryte now. Oh..I'm kinda bored now...what to do...what to say...aiyah...oklah...i know. I'm not in a very good mood these a days...dunno why...sighz..guess what? I figured out that...I'm already FREAKING OUT over my exams!! PLus all the work I haven't do! Including all the work a gathering is burdening me upon!!! ARGH! Then..i kena bullied by all my ketuas..for not being able to collect more money from my fellow librarians! They were practically "abusing" me. Sorry for all the seniors who are reading this...but it is SO NOT MY FAULT that those ppl are not paying up! SO?? Why are you guys so "mad" at me for??? Gosh...I'm so mad ryte now....*boiling*...almost lah..OMG! We haven't started anything for our UBS Project!! What are we gonna do??? Pn. Song will soooo totally kill us!!! We are so dead!!! Plus my Kimia Project which we have to hantar on 14/2/2005!! N it's not done yet! Ryte after holidays!! ARGH!!! So many things to do, so little time! gtg now! byez

Cross Country

Oh gosh. I haven't blogged for days...ryte. Anyway, today, instead of studying, students of SMKSBU went for 'merentas desa' a.k.a. cross-country. Well, as we are seniors now, we're supposed to run at around 9 plus. Okay, I dunno what to say...but..the semangat is in the air! At first The Dumpsters were all together, but all of us [please note that we exclude Jeff] got seperated. I mean to say, our dearest Kimster N Minster went running with full spirit unlike me, who is not suitable for running. After 15 minutes or so, my lungs were already burning. So I kinda..walked mostly of the 4.5 km thingy. And yet...I'm so tired + exhausted. Evaster was kinda behind me. She was even tired-er than me. Pity her. I only ran at the downward slopes and walked at the upward slopes. It's really tiring. And yet...I walk alone. Oops. Gtg Now. Later!