My sis...

My sister...my 12-year-old sister, well, is 12 today. HA HA HA. She invited a whole bunch of lil' people to our house. At first, I wasn't too keen...you know, sick people wouldn't like themselves to be disturbed by naive young kids. So well, I was being all 'sad and sick', so that they would not think of kacau-ing me. When they came in...hate to admit this but...i got almost well...'cause
1. THEY'RE SO CUTE!!!
2. Too bad, I luv kids.
3. Positive thinking!

oh well. the end. nothing much else. bye-bye.

TODAY IS BLOGGIE'S BDAY!!

PPL!!! I ALMOST FORGOT~ TODAY IS MY BEUATIFUL BLOGGIE'S BIRTHDAY!!!
Exactly a year! Gosh..how fast time flies...? *tears*.....Happie Birthday to you..happie birthday to you..happie birthday to bloggie..happie birthday to you...! Muakx!!! Luv ya so much bloggie. Have a wonderful day..(though i doubt that)...anyway! Thx for caring n 'listening' to me all these while...i won't forget you in a hurry. Oopsie. Getting late! C ya bloggie...nitez!

Once a week?

I think my blog entries these a days are shorter and mostly rubbish. Let's just say...I'm not THAT keen to share what's been happening in my life lately. Mainly because...
1) i'M too lazy to blog
2) Nothing interesting happening now.
3) Bored
4) Bored
5) Bored

SEE??? SEE WHAT I MEAN WHEN I TOLD YOU I'M BORED????

Okiez. Let's cut the crap. I think no one bothers checking my page now. All of my friends have their own lives you know. So anyone reading this must have really love me to keep supporting my activeness of my blog. Thanks to all the ppl out there supporting me. I love you too.
"First of all....I would like to thank my parents for allowing me a blog. Then my friends who are reading this entrie at this moment. Lastly...I would like to thank myself..for being so kind to credit you guys."

I'm crying out loud right now. I shall never step foot on earth again. I shall cover my face with a bag so no one will recognize me. Ever.

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Oh..

Oh, and I almost forgot...HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TEDDY BEAR! (SZEMIN!!!)

Muaks!

BORED!

I'm SOOOOOOOOO BORED! God save me! ANyway, Harry Potter & the Half-blood Prince is out. YAY!!! He he...most of you ppl are already bored ryte? I'm just here to fill up my time! My endless time! Lol...jkjk. Haihz. I think that's it for now. I'm going to go do something BETTER! He he...c yA~!

Heyaz~

Everything's as normal as usual here. Except that I've changed my background music. It's from Casper The Movie. Or something similar. And the title is...: Remember Me This Way...by Jordan Hill. Well...if you here the actual music with the singer singing the song, you'll hear the niceness of this song. It's sort of instrumental. So...it's more to soft music playing...but..it's nice lar. Ha ha. Oh..PENILAIAN II IS CANCELLED!!! Thx to the choral speakers for national day..but no thx at the same time....cuz...means..I'll be too lazy to study! Lol...okok..I'll study...I'll study...Rytez...GTG now. Byez ppl! enjoy life!

...Horror of Choir

Thursday. My first impression. Dread. Lazy. Oh no! So fast Thursday? Yupz. Today. Thursday. Pretty much nothing happened. Except it's Swan Boon's birthday! Yay! hEE Hee...Ryte. Results for the "Chosen Ones" for Choral Speaking to perform on National Day. Uh Huh...you guessed ryte...I didn't get in. Quite disappointed at first as I wanted to get in for the fun and the so-called rewards you can get by getting selected. But...what I found out soon put my interest in this Choral Speaking performance for this August...off. Well, here's what I found out about it..:-

Date, time and place of practice:
Everday starting this coming Monday (27/6/05), 7 am - 1 pm. At Cochrane..(how do you spell..?) School, under the sun.

Means: No School till August 31. Or somewhere that time. I don't remember. Extra classes will be provided. After school if I'm not mistaken. Oh, and another thing. You get paid RM6 for every practice you attend.

Sounds a lot like my choir practice. Goodness. Oh well, at first I really really wanted it. Then, when Sze Min actually offered me her place in exchange of her freedom from Choral Speaking, I started thinking. As in, really thinking whether is it all worth it to drop 2 months of studies just for this. I've made up my mind. I'm not doing it. Practically I didn't get selected..I just have to tell my poor teddy bear..that I'm sorry and she have to reject her place without a replacement. Sighz..poor teddy. *Sniff...*

Rytez. After that, another horror begins. Choir IS performing on Hari Anugerah Cemerlang. 9th July 2005. Yupz. THe horror is...so many people that I KNOW will be watching. Lucky my mum said she might not come cuz she's too lazy! Love her for that! Lol...Okok..more tomorrow. Gotta dash! Byez!

Model Kerjaya~

YaY!!! We won!! SMKSBU won third place for MODEL KERJAYA!! Yeah! I'm so happie and proud! Devis Rocks! Power Point Presentation Rocks!! Yeah! Lol...Sorry. Still hyper after all that happened today. Gee...Anyway, it's all thanks to Jason & Jeff's work. The most ''tecno'' PP Presentation I've seen in my life. Very COOL! Besides certificate, we won MONEY back! Well, not much...but still! RM30. It's a lil' sad though. He he...We skipped school the whole day..but, lucky for me and Devis, the whole day our class was chaotic as there were no teachers! Except for English period [which I've heard there's HOMEWORK!-essay- i think...] Pn. Sheela is as nice as ever to help calm my class d0wn. LOL! Oh, well. Pretty much for today. More tomorrow!

Haihz...

Today was just like any normal day. Boring no doubt. After tuition, I went to Millie's sis wedding party. Very nice. Met Shanaz there. He probably was surprised meeting me there. Anyway, everything went pretty well. I went back, feeling a bit tired. THen, nothing happened. Sighz...Oh! Now I remember. I'm having "mental breakdown". Caused by overlapping of work to do that is running in my head like a filmstrip. Over and over again. No wonder some people can go mental. There's just too many things to be done!!! I can't imagine how I can finish all up when all my tuitions and choir practices are taking up all my time...gosh. Oops..gtg now. Happie Father's Day. Byez!

Hurt...

I’m so hurt. Why? Once again, my sis told me some people have been talking bad about me. My sister heard it herself. You know what hurts? The fact that it was librarians who were talking about me…and there were librarians that told other students (non – librarians)…bad stuff about me. THOSE people…talking about how I’m faking ‘myself’ like a goody, innocent girl so that I will get the post for the next librarian board. What do you think about it? I mean, if those people out there…who are all talking bad about me…thinking that I’m one of those who wants a post so much…forget it. If you want that post yourself, you are most welcomed to have it. I won’t rebut with you. You can take everything, like I care. If whoever you are, ever talked about me in this way before…reading this very post, you know what? I DON’T GIVE A DAMN! And I don’t care what you say cause I know I’m not acting for a post, I don’t need a post, and you don’t know me that well so just shut up and get a life. Just get out of my life and take all your rubbish talk with you. You can very well keep it. I don’t need this. Sorry people. I just hate it when people thinks I’m ‘acting’. It just …urgh! P*ss me off! (Excuse the language…) If you think you’re so smart…why not stand up and give a chance to yourself to take up that post instead of talking rubbish. *Breathe* Anyway, conclusion now, since I’ve relieved my deepest thoughts about those stuff…like KJH tells me to do….”WHATEVER!”

This statement that had been scaring me since the beginning of the year is officially confirmed..:
FORM 4 LIFE...SUCKS! (excuse me language...but too bad!)

Unexpectedly I've never regretted taking PTS which got me into the state I'm in right now. 'Cause..probably if I'm still with ppl my age..[in form 3]...I don't know what I'll become today...

Anyway, I really love my err...non-living things destructive actions I have when I get depressed. Members of 4 Sce. Beta would know what will I do when I get so stressed up. Ask them. Haihz...I'm just so disappointed in myself!! How could I fail just LIKE THAT? What is happening to this world??? WHy is everything I'm hoping for destroyed?? My hopes are crushed into dust...that no matter what..it wouldn't change the fact...

I found something in my Literature textbook today. It's a poem...somehow..I'm feeling to treasure it. Here, let me share...it might be boring but..whatever.

If....by Joseph Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired of waiting
Or being lied about don't deal with lies
Or being hated don't give way to hating
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make a heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue
Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!


There. How’s this? Well, if you don’t understand it, it’s okay. I mean, come on! This is still literature for heaven’s sake. Unless you’re William Shakespear’s cucu cicit or something…yeah you’ll probably get it the moment you lay your eyes on it. =P. Oh well, I gotta dash now! Dad’s calling! Peace out and rock on!

I'm backie...

I'm BACK!!
And I'm glad that I'm back...
Gosh...I really want to post a really long one since I've not written..since..right. April 30? Wow..one month plus. That's amazing. But...I have this really important Moral project that's bugging the sh*t out of me. I really need to dash off to finish this....

"Why? Why couldn't I finished it earlier??? Shouldn't be lazy...see what happens??"...

That's my inner me talking. Anyway...bye-bye ppl..will post again soon!! Chiaoz and rock on!!!

It's my BIRTHDAY!

It's my birthday today!!!...

YEAH! I'm fifteen! I'm fifteen!..WEll...

Not much different from who I am just a minute ago. I'm not growing rapidly or whatsoever. Or feeling crap changes 'inside' me..

Ok. Now I know I'm crapping. Still..it's my birthday! Thx to those who wished me! And for those who didn't...it doesn't matter actually...not a big deal...FIY, there's about 2 million ppl who has the same birthday with me anyway!

Happie Birthday to ME! Lol...Chiaoz!

Back...

Back! From...EVERYTHING! Free from my burdening post [librarian gathering]...free from my camp...unfortunately...not free from exams...not free from being stuck with YOU!!! Lol..was jz jk..So well...camp was just last week! Can't imagine how time past so fast! Right now at this time last week...let's refresh memory...we're...doing..ah! Mengenang Jasa activity...quite a sad activity...anyway...missing those times already! Hmm..to tell you the truth...I'M SO LAZY TO BLOG RYTE NOW. I WILL....write about the camp....one very fine day...when I'm SO not lazy to blog. Wakakakakaka....C ya ppl! Chiaoz!

Modified ...

Yay! I modified my blog...with the snowflakes (THX AILEEN!) and the cute song...addicted to it. The whole week was..as usual..exams coming!!! But seriously...I dunno what to blog laa..Haihz...i'll blog tmr if i free if not..wait till i got sumthing to write laa...byez!...slEePyZzz...

BEst day iN SkOoL

School was so COOL!!! Reached school feeling so so weird...dressed in a baju kurung..not braiding my hair...didn't even tie my hair! And the "best" part was...I was still carrying a school bag and loads of stuff in my hand!!! Then reached the library and was...I dunno...strange seeing everyone so colourful! Zhi-Ni is SOOOOO CUTE!!!!....Swan Boon also CUTE!!! Swee Hong so pretty!!! Ah..everyone so different!! HEhehe...the moment finally arrived..the moment when students have been dreaming about since..god knows when! Yeah...the moment to...BREAK RULES!!! WOOHOO!!! Haha...But, unfortunately..the weather is sooooooo HOT!!! Changed into PJ's clothes still so hot! Had fun with Swan and the gang...in the library, where it is cold and cooling. Wakakakaka...! Somebody suggested that we do this once a month! Wow!...Imagine...! Ah...but...hoping that even if every month we're doing this...pls dun lar study...really weird and HOT..cuz the cloth and weather. Gtg now...bye!

HELP Institute..

*Gasp!* "A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.!"

Talking about not worrying about my future...

Anyhow...HELP Institute's building already took my breath away...the building is like..so COOL! Yupz..When we (Cik Sri Devi, Christina, Devis, K.Pui Mun, Me and Swan Boon) were..kinda ''lost'' in the building, trying to find our way out to the shops so that we could EAT..(we were dead hungry!)..the ''classes'' inside were so kewl! The lockers..the labs...the computers! Gosh...but...nah..don't wanna think about my future..too far ahead! Lol..

By the way, the workshop is good lar. Not bad...though I know some people thinks it's boring. But..there are a few pointers here and there. Kristin and Ai Lynn should come. Hehe...then they'll probably make drastic changes in our school magazine this year.

Gosh...tuition is totally making me SICK! I've only got tuitions for only 3 subjects. And I'm vomitting blood already. Imagine what will happen if I take more tuitions. Sighz...I really got a headache the last half hour of the class discussing bout the time we had to replace and stuff.. it seems that for the whole month of April..so..my point is...: Why don't we do everyone a favour and JUST cancel the classes for that month??? Why are we making such a fuss of replacing 10 HOURS of classes?? HEll..we've already covered 7 topics...7!!! But no..we don't wanna cancel classes becuz of GOD knows WHAT. Dunno oso. Whatever.

Okok...please..please..whoever reads this...let it not be ANY of my tuition gang. Especially my tuition teacher...he won't kill me...but...u know...Oh..well..I've got choir at 4 pm later. Malasnya...nevermind...go there have fun..i hope. Lol...Then go swimming!! Yay! MOre laterz. C ya!

Tired

I'm so tired. Finally, school week's over! It's a Friday. I managed to complete my BM project last night and fully binded it this morning. Took me an hour half though. Oh, and I completed my choral speaking script in a night...then I combined mine with U Shen's the next morning and with a lil' changes here and there, TADA! You're now looking at a completed choral speaking script! Lol...hey..but it's true. And photo session was tiring! I don't think my pic this year is nice. I still prefer my Form 3 Picx. What am I saying? I haven't even see the pics yet and already "complaining". Nevermind. I've haven't been my old self today either. No wait. Scratch that! THe WHOLE WEEK!! Guess you guys know the reason. Hmm..I take that back again. Not many know. Or rather...not many remember. Sighz...today I feel so tired and down. I dunno why! Plus I'm also bored! Tomorrow have to go to HELP Institute for some workshop for Edboard. So lazy to go laa..but it's supposed to be a good workshop. Hm...better be..or else...Everyone thought I'm sad or something today. Well...partly I am. I dunno why...maybe not enough sleep kut...because of my tiredness, I kinda ignored everyone. Sorry guys. Didn't mean it. Just not my day to talk today. Really tired. Everyone was like asking..."Why so sad?" I'm not THAT sad actually. Hehe...Don't worry people...(to people who are worried about me)...I'm fine...just...you know lah. Oh...exams results are terrible. Ok. Stop! Won't talk about it. You don't wanna know what will happen. Nothing bad will happen. Just that tears will start stinging my eyes or something similar to that. Izzati Lembu's last day in school is today. Gonna miss her like hell...she's supposed to give me her address so I can mail her. Hehe..Wish I could. Good luck to you my friend. God bless always. With all the spare time today, my brain started stringing word by word and from a rhyming line. Then, I came up with the idea of writing another poem. Sorry guys, won't post that in public. Love that poem. You wanna read...? Let's see if you guys are in my 'specialized list'. Oh, great. My newly created word. Lol. Oh well..better chow now. Exact time? 11.49pm. uh huh...Tomorrow need to go school. And Edboard. hehe..very well..c all of ya soon. Byez! Cheerio selalu!!

Skool! Results! Argh!

"Ring! Ring!"...Apart from that sound..."My beautiful melody from my handphone..."..."Oh no! *Groans*..Please don't tell me it's time for school..."

School holidays are over...*cries*...Missing them already. Woke up feeling really sleepy this morning. Haihz...shouldn't have slept so late last night. Nevermind. Went to school with my tie half-done. "Great. I should have done this last night." The routine is just the same. Same old place..same old teachers..same old..PREFECTS! Argh...people in blue clothings are everywhere. Forget them. Anyway, right into class and memories of exams results came flooding into my brain! Oh, crap! Well...my results were crap as well...I'm not telling you my results. You wanna know..ask me! I just don't wanna ''spread'' this to the whole wide world...Lol! Then...spend the rest of the day..anxious for my next paper to come. Then, library meeting. Usuals...usuals..usuals...have to skip UBS tomorrow for the rehearsal! Huhuhu..I wanna go for UBS! Sighz...lazy to blog now...Till then! Byez

worry sick!

I'm worried. Dead worried. Of someone. My fren. Though I don't really know him. He's worrying me like hell! Okay. I won't say anything more. Btw, I'm also worried for my another fren who did something wrong. I wish I can correct him before something - ok..not really bad..but..trouble for him laa - happens. I jz feel like blogging today. THough everything doesn't seem right today. Haihz...looks like I'll blog till here. Dun feel like it already. Anyway, thx Lien Yiny..for that encouraging comment. =) Byez ppl...